The Man turns into a Boy

( I dedicate this blog to the girl who catalyzed in me turning a boy from a man. :-) )

It was on Friday the Dec14, 2007, when this girl named ... (secret) crossed my life.It so happened that I was going to marry her in a couple of months or so from the day I first met her. My heart was pumping hard, hard enough to carry blood to the sky. I felt the anxiety in me, was a bit tough to control myself. I thought I was lucky when I got an opportunity to chat with her, in a place where only 2 of us were in. I offered her the seat first, and started with an intro, telling about myself & my family. I know I was doing my best(he he), talking very positively & openly too. There was little response until I forced her to speak out, just to hear that she was in affair with a another guy, who was a divorced man. (which I came to hear later)

The whole week was a nightmare to me. I considered the occasion as very auspicious & special. But it all ended in a unexpected way. The nights were long & the days looked like months.

Music was my only consolation. I played it at a very high volume to avoid my brain to stop thinking anything about the incident.